were i to believe in any deities, i would have met them in my dreams a long time ago. were there such a thing as being saved, being rescued from what fate has cursed me with, then the fountains of life and eternal peace i created within my head would have been the gate to such a thing. i have dreamt of worlds far kinder than this one. worlds where all i got was a moment alone where i did not feel lonely. where the people spoke to me and i had no fear of misunderstanding them. i am human, i fear reality, and all i craved in the worlds where i could have created anything were words of kindness without apprehension.